a 2006-2010 wrap up... sorta lol

"Ramblings of IVF Fingerling" was originally created as a diary for me while i went on my journey with IVF, We had been ttc #1 since sept 2005, this blog was originally a written memoir of my stupid thoughts whilst going thru the motions of IVF.. so far this is what we have done::


TTC since SEPT 2005

Laporoscopy & Hyst: Oct 05, Feb 06, Oct 06, Feb 07, Dec 07, Feb 09

** All found severe endo (stage 4), webbing, adhesions, cysts etc**

IVF #1 - Cancelled ~ Not enough Follies

IVF #2 - Fresh Transfer - "Emby" BFP - MC 5w , 3 frozen snow babys

FET #1 - "Emby V 2.0" 15/11/07 -BFN

FET #2 - "Hercules" 15/2/08 - BFP edd 5/11/08..
Our precious little girl Marlie Louise arrived on the 16/10/08 at 5.54pm by Emergency Ceaser due to me suffering from severe Pre Eclampsia at 37w1d, 7 pound, 47.5cm perfect in everyway, I had spent the few weeks before her arrival in and out of hospital and then spent 3 days in coronary care after her birth, I was one sick mumma! But it was all worth it and I couldnt wait to do it all again!!  

June 08 - "Goliath" FET#4 - BFN

August 08- IVF#3 - NO RESPONCE - Cancelled cycle

October 08- IVF #4 - Only 1 single follie, 1 embryo -"Nemo" multinucleated - no transfer


I was basically told I was in early menopause along with my stage 4 endo and that i needed to take a break to let my system rest.. personally i think it was the fact they did a down regulation cycle with me... the pill completely fucks with my system... anyway so yeh we made the descion there will basically be no more IVF for us, with the price hike, the lack of medicare rebate and my failure to respond in past treatments ( I was on the highest dose available and responded worse then a 40 yr old!) it seemed like a lost cause, so we got on with our life and though well we will just enjoy our time with Marlie and get on with life as a family of 3 :D

Enjoy the ride...

Or so we thought...

I started taking a natural herb called Vitex.. we had tried it before when we were trying for Marlie and it got us no where but thought what the hell a $17 bottle of herbs is worth a shot.. beats over 6k per cycle we were paying in IVF fees... so new years day i walk into the bedroom with a positive ovulation test... ;P

JAN 13th 2010 I take a test, i had been feeling queasy and not myself.. I thought oh its probly just the lingering effects from the copious amounts of alcohol from my cousins joint birthday a few days before... well

OMG 2 LINES!!

IM PREGNANT!!

NATURALLY!
NO IVF
NO FERTILITY DRUGS
IN TOTAL SHOCK!!!!


Our Little Boy, Logan William was due the 22nd of September 2010, He arrived by what in the end is termed "elective cesarean" at 38w gestation, My pregnancy with him was pretty cruisy we had a few hiccups along the way and my blood pressure was well on its way up,  I was trying for vbac but after it was discussed with my doctor at 29w when I had severe pains from old scar tissue ripping apart the risks of ruptured uterus from all the previous surgerys and ceaser it scared the crap out of me, and well when my BP went up at 34 weeks so it was just not gonna happen unless i stayed home and birthed like many of my friends at home, but my husband wouldnt have a bar of it and i was too scared to do that too lol so anyway my little dude arrived screaming earthside on the 8/9/10 at 8.31am, 7 pound 8 and 50cm long :D 


So with this I have become that friend that everyone says they know.. you know the one.. the one who took years and IVF to conceive there first and then bam falls naturally without much drama... the urban legend.... 

So 2011 will be filled hopefully with more vigilant blogging by me! 2010 has been a bit slack especially since Logans arrival but i will endevour to post more!!

Ok this is all over the place...

Well i haven't blogged properly in a very long time, I use to use this blog as a journal to my time while i underwent my ivf treatment for Marlies conception and somewhere along the line i lost interest and only blog photos and well not much else, how boring for those of you reading if anyone still is that is... lifes been what i wouldn't call easy but pretty smooth since Logan's arrival, im just goin thru the motions really, its the same thing everyday with the odd trip out and about or to visit friends and family, Marlie is now 2 and such a beautiful little soul shes so loving of her brother always gives him kisses and wants to hug him, although she is the queen of throwing tantrums if she doesnt get her own way lol! terrible 2's are well n truly in this household.. she has really taken to wanting to play outside so we got her a trampoline for her birthday (which she got early hehe) and her grandparents got her a swingset for Christmas last year which we set up just before her second birthday as she was way to young to use it at 14 months old lol, Our yard is almost finished, the shed mike wanted is now built and all wired up its freaking 6x7meters and takes up half the yard which is great really as the yard was just wasted space before that got overrun with weeds and looked like shit, so were much more happy with it the way it is now, Logan is 7 weeks old and just started smiling last week but its a daily occurrence now and he makes the cutest little coo's and gah's just one little grin from him and i get an instant smile, makes it all worth while to see him smile. I think were doing the right thing with him, in that Marlie is still our main focus and he fits in around us, i think that is why she hasnt gone feral and we haven't seen one ounce of jealousy from her yet, the only time she gets annoyed is when she wants me to come play with her and im feeding him, which is only something obviously that i can do as there is no bottles in this house for him :D human milk for human babies i always say.

Im not as tired as i thought i would be, In the beginning i was drained but that was more because i was recovering from the ceasarian and had a 2 hourly feeding baby and a toddler who was waking up for a drink as well! things are gettin easier, i havent felt overwhelmed while ive been at home but leaving the house is a whole other ball game, the first MCHN visit i ended up in tears while i was there, today i went shopping with both of them just up to the local woolworths and hey we managed ok! the other day we met friends at the park and again we survived, i dont like attending big things in open spaces with big crowds, they just make me anxious and are so not worth the stress they cause me so i;ve decided to stay the hell away from these type of events, marlie isnt going to remember at 2 yrs old what activitys we did and feel like shes missed out on anything, as long as we are having fun thats the main thing and well we have much more fun at home or at little parks with friends or at playcenters, where i can relax, at the big things i just end up stressing and leaving anyway, marlie just wants to explore and play and has no interest in the activitys so when shes older we will go.

hmmm what else is there meh cant be bothered anymore.. signing off :D