Day 21

Well its been a long time since updates.. I was made redundant from my job so i've been trying to get my head around that and sort out what i'm doin in life as such and its been a bit of a shock like i dont think it has as sunk in still, i feel like i'm on holidays but i know i have no job to go back to..wierd..anyway .. I started syranel on day 18... since then i have had headaches and nose bleeds, i rang the clinic to find out what should i do about the nose bleeds..she pointed out the obvious..change nostrils lol so i have and so far so good, i also start to feel sick nightly around 5ish onwards and just wanna sleep but i cant.. i have my second "hit" of syranel at 9pm and afterwards i'm wide awake, plus i've got a slight cold/flu coming on so last night i took a night time cold and flu tablet and it knocked me out! thank god i got some sleep!! so i've been feelin prety alright today just really gotta do what i can and just take it day by day really.. i'm really bored at home, yet i dont want to go out, i think this is like some sort of depression, i dont wanna do anything, see anyone or even talk about ivf anymore, its just becoming too much, i'm not on the net as much as i use to and i cant be bothered doin anything, i have cleaned my house so that there is nothing left to do, i plan on painting the back rooms next week, but i have no pressure or time frame to do it in, i work best under pressure and now there is none.. i dont get it..maybe i'm not coping with this all.. bah anyway i'm off