Tuesday, November 13, 2007
I"m baaackkkk
Well i'm back.. i got all wrapped up in the last cycle and forgot to blog here as i was doing alot on other sites... here is the rundown of my feelings from the past blogs about my last stim cycle
07 Sep 2007
And here we go
Current mood: apathetic
Well alot has been happening in my world lately.. well ok not that much, I have strarted IVF cycle 2 and i'm just pluggin along spraying crap up my nose twice a day puttin up witht eh blood noses and moody bitch moods.. ok well mike is putting up with them and just hoping that it will all be worth it and make it to epu this time.. the last cycle really threw me alot harder then i ever thought it would, but i got on with it, its what u have to do, life goes on.. so what it didnt work.. pick up ur shit and move on, lifes to short to cry over things that are out of your control, yeh sounds good huh now i just gotta remember that heh So i'm now half way thru my cycle looking at starting stim injections on the 14th if my stupid ass body reacts properly and is ready for it! On a more positive note i went out last night for the first time in ages and i really enjoyed myself,, didnt go for long but it was worth every minute i think even mike had some sort of fun, were goin out again tonight too headin to playhouse which we havent been for aaaaaaaaaaaages.
Well i'll leave it there
14 Sep 2007
Injecting.. Current mood: excited
I start injections tomorrow yay bring on the follies!! 1 more week and i'll be in the city finding out how many eggies my ovarys have made and then hopefully the 24th i will have them all harvested and fertalised and 1 put back on the 26th and by mid october get my positive test yay.. yes positive thinking yay
** Side note**
Started stimming on 225 gonal f - was uped to 300 when nothing was happening..
02 Oct 2007
Emby on Board
There is my perfect 4 cell embryo all nicely now tucked up inside me..
And guess what else.. we have 3 more just like it on ice!!
We had a perfect fertalisation of the 5 eggs 1 was immature so it was discarded, the other 4 were nice and mature so into the fertalisation process they went and all 4 of them turned into perfect 4 cell embys!!!The nurse and FS were all shocked at the great outcome because apparantly its really rare for this to happen!!
100% success!! I cant beleive i have one in me now and in 2 weeks i could get some awesome news!! We are just over the moon and i had to share with everyone my good news and pic
17 Oct 2007
And Now theres nothing
Well my IVF was going great, after some light spotting i rang my FS who srent me straight for a bloodtest.. so basically i was told on saturday i was pregnant.. had to have a follow up blood test on monday to check levels were rising and well that one confirmed my worst fears, and my hcg had dropped down from 77 to 13, so i am miscarrying my little one, My nurse said it is fantastic that i got this far and should be proud of myself for overcoming everything i had against me to get implantation is great, i feel so guilty, and so mad, and every other feeling its so horrible, no one should have to go thru this in the space of 2 days i have gone from being absolutely ecstatic to being lost.. i'm not really understanding my emotions, as bad as this is going to sound i feel like i have had a lead weight off my shoulders, i finally know what is/has happened and its a great relief, yesterday i was a blithering mess and wiped myself out from crying and alcohol, i woke up this morning to a new day, and i refuse to let myself fall to pieces any longer, I cant change what has happened and i just have to accept that this little emby didnt make it, but i have 3 more chances and hope to whatevers out there that one of them will make it and i will hold them in my arms eventually. I have made the descion to take a month or two off, let my body have a rest i have had that much hormone thru my body since june i need to have this break, to cleanse my body and i am joining weight watchers on thursday night, time to stop sitting on my a$$ letting the weight stack on and being depressed over it, action needs to be taken so action will be, no more excuses, i hope to by getting that extra 10 or so kilos off that i have allowed to stack on this year, my little embys will have a better chance and i will be a healthier being to carry them in.
07 Sep 2007
And here we go
Current mood: apathetic
Well alot has been happening in my world lately.. well ok not that much, I have strarted IVF cycle 2 and i'm just pluggin along spraying crap up my nose twice a day puttin up witht eh blood noses and moody bitch moods.. ok well mike is putting up with them and just hoping that it will all be worth it and make it to epu this time.. the last cycle really threw me alot harder then i ever thought it would, but i got on with it, its what u have to do, life goes on.. so what it didnt work.. pick up ur shit and move on, lifes to short to cry over things that are out of your control, yeh sounds good huh now i just gotta remember that heh So i'm now half way thru my cycle looking at starting stim injections on the 14th if my stupid ass body reacts properly and is ready for it! On a more positive note i went out last night for the first time in ages and i really enjoyed myself,, didnt go for long but it was worth every minute i think even mike had some sort of fun, were goin out again tonight too headin to playhouse which we havent been for aaaaaaaaaaaages.
Well i'll leave it there
14 Sep 2007
Injecting.. Current mood: excited
I start injections tomorrow yay bring on the follies!! 1 more week and i'll be in the city finding out how many eggies my ovarys have made and then hopefully the 24th i will have them all harvested and fertalised and 1 put back on the 26th and by mid october get my positive test yay.. yes positive thinking yay
** Side note**
Started stimming on 225 gonal f - was uped to 300 when nothing was happening..
02 Oct 2007
Emby on Board
There is my perfect 4 cell embryo all nicely now tucked up inside me..
And guess what else.. we have 3 more just like it on ice!!
We had a perfect fertalisation of the 5 eggs 1 was immature so it was discarded, the other 4 were nice and mature so into the fertalisation process they went and all 4 of them turned into perfect 4 cell embys!!!The nurse and FS were all shocked at the great outcome because apparantly its really rare for this to happen!!
100% success!! I cant beleive i have one in me now and in 2 weeks i could get some awesome news!! We are just over the moon and i had to share with everyone my good news and pic
17 Oct 2007
And Now theres nothing
Well my IVF was going great, after some light spotting i rang my FS who srent me straight for a bloodtest.. so basically i was told on saturday i was pregnant.. had to have a follow up blood test on monday to check levels were rising and well that one confirmed my worst fears, and my hcg had dropped down from 77 to 13, so i am miscarrying my little one, My nurse said it is fantastic that i got this far and should be proud of myself for overcoming everything i had against me to get implantation is great, i feel so guilty, and so mad, and every other feeling its so horrible, no one should have to go thru this in the space of 2 days i have gone from being absolutely ecstatic to being lost.. i'm not really understanding my emotions, as bad as this is going to sound i feel like i have had a lead weight off my shoulders, i finally know what is/has happened and its a great relief, yesterday i was a blithering mess and wiped myself out from crying and alcohol, i woke up this morning to a new day, and i refuse to let myself fall to pieces any longer, I cant change what has happened and i just have to accept that this little emby didnt make it, but i have 3 more chances and hope to whatevers out there that one of them will make it and i will hold them in my arms eventually. I have made the descion to take a month or two off, let my body have a rest i have had that much hormone thru my body since june i need to have this break, to cleanse my body and i am joining weight watchers on thursday night, time to stop sitting on my a$$ letting the weight stack on and being depressed over it, action needs to be taken so action will be, no more excuses, i hope to by getting that extra 10 or so kilos off that i have allowed to stack on this year, my little embys will have a better chance and i will be a healthier being to carry them in.
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