Day 61

Ok well i rang the clinic as i hadnt heard from them, I am to start down regulation for our second cycle on saturday so that means yep.. back on the pill for a month then all over again.. yeh more headaches, pains and weight gain.. and the depression i'm trying to be strong but everything is just getting to me, i feel numb..however on a brighter note i got myself a new job, just working in a busy cafe, I started monday and i'm really enjoying it, have my second shift tommorrow :)

Umm

Ok so 4 days after having my cycle cancelled i get AF.. i dont fuckin get it, i'm meant to have 2 weeks.. the egg was meant to be released as per normal like a normal cycle.. well wtf is going on! i rang the clinic yesterday when it started and she is getting back to me as to what to do next!! She said it was strange and shouldnt be happening but everyone is different.. so i'm just waiting waiting waiting..