well i just finished watching the tears and hope video Jo posted.. am sitting here in tears and i'm just so physically upset by it.. u know how u just feel like a lead weight and then u loose everything in you and just bawl ur eyes out.. well thats me right now
I"ve been havina crap time over the last week with the spray i am getting the worst hot flushes my face is on fire and i have low cramping like af pain its nothign to be concerned about but i dunnno i just feel like i have only a few more days and i'm on injections but its just taking to long i'm sick of waiting waiting and more fucking waiting my aunty told me to be patient earlier and i told her i'm really sick of hearing that she apologised straight away but the damage was doen then i watched that movie and thats it i'm done for the night i'm ready to curl up and go to bed..
another thing which is really bothering me is the lack of "BD" its seems that since we dont have to have sex and more we no longer are.. the last 2 times i have had to initiate everything.. i even put sexy lingereie and i showed him and his responce was "yeh so what i've seen it before.." nothing happened that night so i eventually just jumped him monday night before that it was 2 weeks.. going from bd every single day or second day to this drought has annoyed me.. not coz im a hornbag and HAVE to have it or something but i'm just so darn use to it and now nothing... its just wierd wow ur probly gettin really bored of me complaining about my sex life lol oh and heads up girls if u ever have to have the spray..to put it ever so nicely you will be dryer then a nuns tit downstairs nothing will happen there lol so invest in some ky if ur hubby actually wants to come near you lol ok well now i'm babbling so i will sign off for today.. x0x.. p.s i havent proof read this so if its all over the place..sorry
