RAHHH

Well it looks like i have made a return to the world of blogging since my last entry about our failures, since that we have had xmas and new years, xmas was great spread over 3 days with all the different sides of the family, Marlie is 14months old now.. how did that happen... well on the IVF front, we wont be returning for quite awhile, Im in no hurry to go back to that world, it makes me sad and depressed and feel like a failure so fuck it, early menopause and stage 4 endo can eat it, i am going to take the time with mike n Marlie n enjoy what i have no what i dont, I feel guilty everyday that i gave up breastfeeding to go back to
ivf when Marlie was 8 months old, but at the time i thought i was makin the right decisions, things are lookin ok in general, Mike is workin his ass off and hasnt been around much but thats what happens every year at this time, during the middle of the year he should get some time off and we will be able to go away or something, he hasnt had a holiday since our honeymoon, I went to qld while i was preg while he stayed home and held the fort here,  The last 12 months have just flown by and this year i have made a great friend, Cara and she is my rock, we met originally thru our online birthclub and well  we have spent basically every other day together since, Marlie and Miky are best mates and get along so well, they are like sisters, I am very lucky to have her coz if i didnt i really wouldnt of had much of another friend as the people i was close with 18 months ago are basically non existant... isnt it strange how much things can change in such a short amount of time.... i shall leave it there and come back laterah... toodle oooo