Day 3 & 4

January 3, 2011

My spunky boy Logan... check the drool oh yeh baby hahaha

January 4th 2011

Peekaboo Marlie!!!!

Happy New Year!

Well it is the start of a new year! Welcome 2011 I cant wait to see what you have in store for us.
New years eve for us was spent at my youngest sister's house, the kids played for hours in the pool while us women folk sat around having a good ole chinwag and the boys congregated around the bbq with my step father being the know it all and bossing poor neil ( my sisters fiance) around and trying to take over HIS brand new bbq lol.. i really enjoyed yesterday afternoon, there was no stress the kids could run and have fun without the stress and worry that was experienced at my mums house on christmas day where the kids where being yelled at left right n center for touching this or that or well just being kids, i mentioned this fact to her yesterday and told her i wont be attending christmas anymore, its just too much and too hard with her in charge! So im thinking next year we will have christmas here and it will just be a casual bbq for who ever wants to come, i dont see the point in spending it with all the extended auntys and uncles, they are people i dont see all year and have no interest really in spending what is meant to be a special family day with them, its like having a table full of strangers at the table that u have to kiss and be nice too even though u cant stand them.. i know i know its one day rahdy rah rah but ugh no thanks!! wow went off the point of this blog there didnt i haha can ya tell i dont like christmas hence no christmas blog!

Melissa, Me, Caz & Mum ( 2 of my sisters)

After we took the kids home, I got them all settled into bed then I headed over to Loz's to see some of my bestest friends, I didnt stay long, I wanted to be home by midnight :) I got home at 11.30.. just in time for Logan to wake up and want a boob so it was well timed really lol

So what are my goals for this year..

• Loose the slab of flab i have hanging of the front of my tummy from having the kids, I will always have a little belly, im fine with that, never in my 27 years have i had a flat stomach and now with the ceaser scars and the hole pivot in my pubic line from the numerous surgerys it has made it impossible to even think i could one lol so its more a toning issue for me, I am 5'10 and weigh 73 kilos, i am within healthy weight range.. "Your BMI is 24 This is within the BMI range of 20 to 25 which experts generally consider to be healthy. " Sure I could probly loose another 5-10 kilos and that would be great, but as i said its more a toning issue for my tummy!
• Go on holiday's, We have not been on a holiday for years, The last time we and mike went on holiday was to QLD in 2005, we went for a week and we drove up there and stayed with his aunty. Obviously now that we have the 2 kids it will be a child friendly holiday so i will have to get planning and saving so it can be a nice one worth while going on, any ideas?
• Spend more time together going out as a family wether it be to the beach for a picnic or down the park for a play, everything in this house revolves around the computers & tv's and its shit, ive had enough there is more to life then this house... now to convince hubby of this! 
• We have a very slack dinner ethic in this house, you know how most people sit at the table and eat a meal together.. well we dont, mike sits at his computer desk, i sit on the couch and Marlie sits in her highchair in front of the TV... talk about bad habits!! So i would like to break them and have us all at the table, no tv on.. no computers just us 4. 
• Be a better wife, Mike works very hard to give us everything we want, sometimes i think i take that for granted a bit and I need to appreciate his efforts more.. i guess he makes it hard when he comes home and just wants to play games when ive had no one but children to talk to and i want some attention from him.. sigh 
• Be a better blogger!!

That is all i can think of for now... I'm sure I will see other peoples goals and think oh thats a good idea lol but for now they are my main ones :D soooo what are yours?

Marlie will turn omg 3 this year, she is already such the little grot lady and growing up so very fast, we are cutrrenty in the midst of toilet training, we have many naked days and she runs off and takes herself to the potty or big girls toilet when she feels the urge to go, we havent had a accident for 3 days now! Nappies still at night and when we leave the house, but naked or nickies when were home! So i think that is another goal to have her fully toilet trained this year.

Logan will turn 1, its gonna be a HUGE year for him with many milestones to reach and i cant wait for him to acheive each and every one of them, He's 16 weeks old now and not doing that much, but hes pretty awesome with a wiked cheeky grin that just melts your heart, we are giving him lots of floor time coz Marlie doesnt really go near him unless to give him a kiss and is very careful around him when she is near him, we are lucky we have 2 loungerooms and she tends to play in the one we arent in lol 

I shall leave you with some piccies of the kids from yesterday!

       

...Marlie in the pool..                                                                                           ...Logan chillin inside.....

a 2006-2010 wrap up... sorta lol

"Ramblings of IVF Fingerling" was originally created as a diary for me while i went on my journey with IVF, We had been ttc #1 since sept 2005, this blog was originally a written memoir of my stupid thoughts whilst going thru the motions of IVF.. so far this is what we have done::


TTC since SEPT 2005

Laporoscopy & Hyst: Oct 05, Feb 06, Oct 06, Feb 07, Dec 07, Feb 09

** All found severe endo (stage 4), webbing, adhesions, cysts etc**

IVF #1 - Cancelled ~ Not enough Follies

IVF #2 - Fresh Transfer - "Emby" BFP - MC 5w , 3 frozen snow babys

FET #1 - "Emby V 2.0" 15/11/07 -BFN

FET #2 - "Hercules" 15/2/08 - BFP edd 5/11/08..
Our precious little girl Marlie Louise arrived on the 16/10/08 at 5.54pm by Emergency Ceaser due to me suffering from severe Pre Eclampsia at 37w1d, 7 pound, 47.5cm perfect in everyway, I had spent the few weeks before her arrival in and out of hospital and then spent 3 days in coronary care after her birth, I was one sick mumma! But it was all worth it and I couldnt wait to do it all again!!  

June 08 - "Goliath" FET#4 - BFN

August 08- IVF#3 - NO RESPONCE - Cancelled cycle

October 08- IVF #4 - Only 1 single follie, 1 embryo -"Nemo" multinucleated - no transfer


I was basically told I was in early menopause along with my stage 4 endo and that i needed to take a break to let my system rest.. personally i think it was the fact they did a down regulation cycle with me... the pill completely fucks with my system... anyway so yeh we made the descion there will basically be no more IVF for us, with the price hike, the lack of medicare rebate and my failure to respond in past treatments ( I was on the highest dose available and responded worse then a 40 yr old!) it seemed like a lost cause, so we got on with our life and though well we will just enjoy our time with Marlie and get on with life as a family of 3 :D

Enjoy the ride...

Or so we thought...

I started taking a natural herb called Vitex.. we had tried it before when we were trying for Marlie and it got us no where but thought what the hell a $17 bottle of herbs is worth a shot.. beats over 6k per cycle we were paying in IVF fees... so new years day i walk into the bedroom with a positive ovulation test... ;P

JAN 13th 2010 I take a test, i had been feeling queasy and not myself.. I thought oh its probly just the lingering effects from the copious amounts of alcohol from my cousins joint birthday a few days before... well

OMG 2 LINES!!

IM PREGNANT!!

NATURALLY!
NO IVF
NO FERTILITY DRUGS
IN TOTAL SHOCK!!!!


Our Little Boy, Logan William was due the 22nd of September 2010, He arrived by what in the end is termed "elective cesarean" at 38w gestation, My pregnancy with him was pretty cruisy we had a few hiccups along the way and my blood pressure was well on its way up,  I was trying for vbac but after it was discussed with my doctor at 29w when I had severe pains from old scar tissue ripping apart the risks of ruptured uterus from all the previous surgerys and ceaser it scared the crap out of me, and well when my BP went up at 34 weeks so it was just not gonna happen unless i stayed home and birthed like many of my friends at home, but my husband wouldnt have a bar of it and i was too scared to do that too lol so anyway my little dude arrived screaming earthside on the 8/9/10 at 8.31am, 7 pound 8 and 50cm long :D 


So with this I have become that friend that everyone says they know.. you know the one.. the one who took years and IVF to conceive there first and then bam falls naturally without much drama... the urban legend.... 

So 2011 will be filled hopefully with more vigilant blogging by me! 2010 has been a bit slack especially since Logans arrival but i will endevour to post more!!

well not quite

Well its not quite christmas and well it definately isnt cold here but i like the blue christmas theme kit i found recently so heres a new header for the season..  until i can find a aussie themed one hehe
not alot happening i have spent most of the day today sewing and on the phone to telstra.. dont even get me started on that bunch of idiots.. grrrr i hate them
Logan is almost 3 months and is cutting teeth already he is continually drooling all over the place so team up teething and the 12 week growth spurt = no sleep for mumma! i will live though, thats what its all about isnt it? sacrifice :) i woudl give or do anythin for my bubbaloo's.
Marlie is 25 months and is such a little grown up, its amazing how much she has grwon up since Logie came along, she loves her brother to pieces and is always kissing him and sometimes is a little too loving.. almost squishing him with giant bear hugs haha

Ok this is all over the place...

Well i haven't blogged properly in a very long time, I use to use this blog as a journal to my time while i underwent my ivf treatment for Marlies conception and somewhere along the line i lost interest and only blog photos and well not much else, how boring for those of you reading if anyone still is that is... lifes been what i wouldn't call easy but pretty smooth since Logan's arrival, im just goin thru the motions really, its the same thing everyday with the odd trip out and about or to visit friends and family, Marlie is now 2 and such a beautiful little soul shes so loving of her brother always gives him kisses and wants to hug him, although she is the queen of throwing tantrums if she doesnt get her own way lol! terrible 2's are well n truly in this household.. she has really taken to wanting to play outside so we got her a trampoline for her birthday (which she got early hehe) and her grandparents got her a swingset for Christmas last year which we set up just before her second birthday as she was way to young to use it at 14 months old lol, Our yard is almost finished, the shed mike wanted is now built and all wired up its freaking 6x7meters and takes up half the yard which is great really as the yard was just wasted space before that got overrun with weeds and looked like shit, so were much more happy with it the way it is now, Logan is 7 weeks old and just started smiling last week but its a daily occurrence now and he makes the cutest little coo's and gah's just one little grin from him and i get an instant smile, makes it all worth while to see him smile. I think were doing the right thing with him, in that Marlie is still our main focus and he fits in around us, i think that is why she hasnt gone feral and we haven't seen one ounce of jealousy from her yet, the only time she gets annoyed is when she wants me to come play with her and im feeding him, which is only something obviously that i can do as there is no bottles in this house for him :D human milk for human babies i always say.

Im not as tired as i thought i would be, In the beginning i was drained but that was more because i was recovering from the ceasarian and had a 2 hourly feeding baby and a toddler who was waking up for a drink as well! things are gettin easier, i havent felt overwhelmed while ive been at home but leaving the house is a whole other ball game, the first MCHN visit i ended up in tears while i was there, today i went shopping with both of them just up to the local woolworths and hey we managed ok! the other day we met friends at the park and again we survived, i dont like attending big things in open spaces with big crowds, they just make me anxious and are so not worth the stress they cause me so i;ve decided to stay the hell away from these type of events, marlie isnt going to remember at 2 yrs old what activitys we did and feel like shes missed out on anything, as long as we are having fun thats the main thing and well we have much more fun at home or at little parks with friends or at playcenters, where i can relax, at the big things i just end up stressing and leaving anyway, marlie just wants to explore and play and has no interest in the activitys so when shes older we will go.

hmmm what else is there meh cant be bothered anymore.. signing off :D

Marlie's 2nd Birthday - In pictures