Well i haven't blogged properly in a very long time, I use to use this blog as a journal to my time while i underwent my ivf treatment for Marlies conception and somewhere along the line i lost interest and only blog photos and well not much else, how boring for those of you reading if anyone still is that is... lifes been what i wouldn't call easy but pretty smooth since Logan's arrival, im just goin thru the motions really, its the same thing everyday with the odd trip out and about or to visit friends and family, Marlie is now 2 and such a beautiful little soul shes so loving of her brother always gives him kisses and wants to hug him, although she is the queen of throwing tantrums if she doesnt get her own way lol! terrible 2's are well n truly in this household.. she has really taken to wanting to play outside so we got her a trampoline for her birthday (which she got early hehe) and her grandparents got her a swingset for Christmas last year which we set up just before her second birthday as she was way to young to use it at 14 months old lol, Our yard is almost finished, the shed mike wanted is now built and all wired up its freaking 6x7meters and takes up half the yard which is great really as the yard was just wasted space before that got overrun with weeds and looked like shit, so were much more happy with it the way it is now, Logan is 7 weeks old and just started smiling last week but its a daily occurrence now and he makes the cutest little coo's and gah's just one little grin from him and i get an instant smile, makes it all worth while to see him smile. I think were doing the right thing with him, in that Marlie is still our main focus and he fits in around us, i think that is why she hasnt gone feral and we haven't seen one ounce of jealousy from her yet, the only time she gets annoyed is when she wants me to come play with her and im feeding him, which is only something obviously that i can do as there is no bottles in this house for him :D human milk for human babies i always say.
Im not as tired as i thought i would be, In the beginning i was drained but that was more because i was recovering from the ceasarian and had a 2 hourly feeding baby and a toddler who was waking up for a drink as well! things are gettin easier, i havent felt overwhelmed while ive been at home but leaving the house is a whole other ball game, the first MCHN visit i ended up in tears while i was there, today i went shopping with both of them just up to the local woolworths and hey we managed ok! the other day we met friends at the park and again we survived, i dont like attending big things in open spaces with big crowds, they just make me anxious and are so not worth the stress they cause me so i;ve decided to stay the hell away from these type of events, marlie isnt going to remember at 2 yrs old what activitys we did and feel like shes missed out on anything, as long as we are having fun thats the main thing and well we have much more fun at home or at little parks with friends or at playcenters, where i can relax, at the big things i just end up stressing and leaving anyway, marlie just wants to explore and play and has no interest in the activitys so when shes older we will go.
hmmm what else is there meh cant be bothered anymore.. signing off :D
