ARGGGGGGGHhhhhh

ok well i'm back from hospital and feelin a little down n sorry for myself, i hate my body so much, no matter what i do i keep getting struck down by this disease, there is no cure there is nothin i can do to make it any better for myself except to have the surgerys all the friggen time... this one found a massive leaking cyst on my right ovary and a pelvis and cervix and uterus full of endo... in the last 24 months i have had 5 surgerys... what a fuckin joke.. its not fair, i cant even do the simplest thing that your every day woman can, i need medical intervention at every turn, oh you want to have a baby, here have this surgery, sniff these drugs, oh no wait here keep sniffing them then here inject yourself with this every day , go and have a scan... nah keep injectiong.. ok thats enough now go to the city and have another surgery and wait 2 days and see if you have any embryos... oh look you have 4 perfect ones, lets put 1 back.. yay congratulations your pregnant... actually no i'm sorry your miscarrying your levels arent rising they have dropped right off... ok start again... ok your period is taking too long to come back... just wait some more.. ok here piss on these every mornig... if you get 2 dark lines ring me... peeing peeing peeing.. wow look u ovulated thats great congratulations... lets put a embryo back... yay all going good... oh wait i'm bleeding 8 days after the transfer... GET FUCKED