well i just finished watching the tears and hope video Jo posted.. am sitting here in tears and i'm just so physically upset by it.. u know how u just feel like a lead weight and then u loose everything in you and just bawl ur eyes out.. well thats me right now
I"ve been havina crap time over the last week with the spray i am getting the worst hot flushes my face is on fire and i have low cramping like af pain its nothign to be concerned about but i dunnno i just feel like i have only a few more days and i'm on injections but its just taking to long i'm sick of waiting waiting and more fucking waiting my aunty told me to be patient earlier and i told her i'm really sick of hearing that she apologised straight away but the damage was doen then i watched that movie and thats it i'm done for the night i'm ready to curl up and go to bed..
another thing which is really bothering me is the lack of "BD" its seems that since we dont have to have sex and more we no longer are.. the last 2 times i have had to initiate everything.. i even put sexy lingereie and i showed him and his responce was "yeh so what i've seen it before.." nothing happened that night so i eventually just jumped him monday night before that it was 2 weeks.. going from bd every single day or second day to this drought has annoyed me.. not coz im a hornbag and HAVE to have it or something but i'm just so darn use to it and now nothing... its just wierd wow ur probly gettin really bored of me complaining about my sex life lol oh and heads up girls if u ever have to have the spray..to put it ever so nicely you will be dryer then a nuns tit downstairs nothing will happen there lol so invest in some ky if ur hubby actually wants to come near you lol ok well now i'm babbling so i will sign off for today.. x0x.. p.s i havent proof read this so if its all over the place..sorry
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Hi Ebz
Gosh you sound so down...... Hang in there girl - remember what the end product is. I'm guessing you're hormones are causing you to be like this. Don't be so hard on yourself. You know where we are if you need to vent.
SEX - mmmm well that is exactly what is going on in our house - except it's my dh complaining. This has all been since we found out his swimmers aren't working properly. I think it's affecting quite badly and has this need to prove he is a man. We haven't bd'd in a week and you'd think the world had come to an end!!!!
On another note it seems your mum and mine are being very insensitve to us. My best friend ran into my mum yesterday and told her"she really should just get over trying to have another baby and accept the fact that she had 2 children and this is what life has dealt her and get used to it" Yes - I have 2 beautiful kids - do I feel complete - NO. When I held my new niece on Tuesday I knew then and there that I definately want another child. The feeling was just amazing.
Thanks so much for sharing your journey on here. I for one appreciate you being upfront and honest about the whole process.
Talk to you later,
Mel
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