2000 - 2010

Ok so im jumping on the decade blog idea.

-2000-
I was in year 11 at school, Me & Mike had been together for a year already, it was a hard year for me, I was over coming my battle with bulimia and didnt want to finish school, I was working 3 jobs, Hungry Jacks, Ritchies & waitressing at a chinese restaurant, school was the last thing I cared about, I was on the committee for the debutant ball and i spent most of my energy helping with that and going to the lessons to learn all the dances!

-2001-
I was still at school, I was only there because i wanted to be the first grandchild to complete my VCE, my older sister and cousin had both dropped out and I was a very insecure person and felt i needed that praise, The kick up the arse from my now inlaws also helped me to stay, they said i would regret it in the future if i dropped out.. dont know if i would of regretted it as it got me no where lol anyway.. I was spending all my time at Mikes house and barely ever went home, me and my mother were not getting along, my sisters boyfriend and her were living with mum and there was always an argument between me and her other half and my mum always took his side.. so i wanted out, i was only working 2 jobs by this stage - ritchies and waitressing, i only did 4 subjects in year 12, english, english lit, history & textiles, i had wednesdays off school completely so worked a full day at the supermarket which suited me just fine! I finished year 12 with a enter of 45.7 lol! hardly worth doing but i did it!!

-2002-
With school finished i didnt know what to do with myself, i had no ambitions to keep studying so went looking for work instead.. I ended up working with my mum in an aged care center, it wasnt glamourous work but i loved doing it, i worked in the kitchen for 2 days and down in one of thelodges for the other 3 or 4, it was great spending time with the elderly, but it mad me immune to death, i was afraid for so many years of people dying after my dad passed away when i was just 10 years old  and i was on school camp.. man thats a blog all of its own.. back to 2002.. so after loosing many of my dear friends, death become just part of the daily grind, it was rock into work in the morning to find another one of my resi's had passed on, 2 deaths that will stay with me forever - old Eric, I had just served up his soup for dinner, he thanked me and then had a heart attack and died right there at the table in his soup bowl and Mick, he was a large man, walking down the hallway and he just dropped, the ambos cracked his chest right there on the floor, My time in the dementia ward i loved, they were just like children, so full of exuberance and just as moody :) My time at the nursung home ended rather abruptly, and i was used by the GM to clear out my boss, after a rather nasty altercation with my boss and a few other staff members i was encouraged to put in a bullying & harrasment complaint.. so being the nieve 19 yr old i did what i was told... well that had a snowball effect, my boss was fired.. then we were all made redundant and they bought in an external contractor to do our jobs, some of us were offered new jobs others took the redundancy.. i took the redundancy... i was a pawn.. talk about used.

-2003-
After getting my pay out from the aged care home, i got a job waitiressing at the new la porchetta that opened up.. i lasted 3 months there and hated every minute of it.. i applied for a job at a major electronics company... well i rang the department boss as i ad a friend who worked in the warehouse... she said no at first.. but i think my phone calls every 3-4 days wore her down and i got a job! it was just a shit kicking box packing job.. all i did all day was unpack & repack dvd players lol! It was long boring and annoying work, i didnt like the people i worked with and my boss saw my potential so i only stayed in that department for 4 months, i moved onto the spare parts department.. picking & packin and maning the phones/reception. This was also the year me & mike got engaged.. it was a very romantic occassion... not lol pissed at the pub on the dance floor with a rose bought from some lady who use to walk around selling them! that was also the night my sister od' on drugs.. sorta took the fun out of the night :/ Mike later proposed to me at home with the love heart lollys and a ring, This year i also had my first of what was to be many many surgerys for my endometriosis, It was a rather nasty operation lasting over 3 hours where they removed a 7.5cm polyp from the top of my cervix and unstuck my tubes,bowels, bladder and cleared my pelvis... i was pain free for 6 months...

-2004-
I was still working my ass off at Pioneer, I was living at Mike's with his mum and dad and having the time of our lives, we partied every other night, we had partys on the weekends and we were just enjoying being young and care free, we had our cars, jobs and friends... that was all we cared for and needed, i had another 2 surgerys this year... things were getting nasty for me...

-2005-
Still at Pioneer but i moved around department from warehouse/tech support/spare parts and service, i was a floater... i had my hands in every department,  this was the year my gyno told me if i wanted kids i would have to start trying... well we tried... and tried.... and tried some more... nothing was working... this is when my life became all about babies... we were still partying it up... drinking too much and drowning my sorrows month after month of no babies... September... i fell pregnant - wasnt to be... bye bye little one.

-2006-

Still at Pioneer., I had moved departments again, I was now in technical support on the phones.. Still no baby, no more pregnancys at all... month after month... getting fatter and fatter.. more depressed and miserable then ever.. i had never wanted children till they told me i couldnt have them... i had 3 surgerys this year...my gyno put me on clomid... i over stimmed and ended up with a big nasty cyst which popped and was poisoning me from the inside... back to surgery i went!! This continued for the rest of the year....   ttc and constant surgerys are not a good mix... stress, drinking, shit year.. But one good thing happened.. Me and Mike got married in June, it was a winter wedding, we were wed on my dads birthday... still ttc....

-2007-

Finally after more surgery i demanded something more be done.. i was referred to the IVF clinic, my FS took one look at my history and we started the next cycle, I was still working at Pioneer... but that didnt last long, i was made redundant again!! I got an awesome payout as i was fulltime and had been there for over 4 years, I had taken alot of time off work due to surgerys and ivf appointments and the stress from my job wasnt helping anything at all so it was a blessing in disguise! I got made redundant the day i had my councelling appointment to start my very first cycle! i packed my shit up at work left there and went to the clinic! I met my wonderful nurse who would be there the whole time i was going thru ivf.. her name was Jo, she was awesome. IVF in 2007 was a flop.. i wasnt stimming so my cycle in June was cancelled.. we did another cycle in September, i got 4 perfect embryos, i had 1 put back... I got pregnant but again, it wasnt meant to be and my little one left us at 5 weeks. :( it broke out hearts, We had another one of our embryo's put back and it didnt work, i started bleeding early, my systems had all stuffed up and wasnt suprressed like it was meant to be... after this cycle we didnt have enough time to get another one in before the christmas break so we took that time to process what had happened.. you can read about all my ivf life in the 2007 blogs!
nat & jenjen if you are reading this read this post, i think you can relate to this one "well" - be warned its a tear jerker and it summed up exactly how i felt, and i know how you beautiful women are feeling now.
Oh and i was working part time in a cafe with my friend jess!

-2008-

Well this year was awesome, After my break from IVF we went back, I was lighter, i was clear minded and my sttitude had changed completely, i wasnt feeling angry and drawn down, i went into our FET with an open mind and open heart, We had our 3rd embryo transfered february 15th, And found out we were again pregnant, but this one was a keeper! i had an awesome pregnancy and relished every moment, i was the typical omg i love being pregnant person, things went a little shitty towards the end read about Marlies birth story here, we were blissed out and over the moon at arrival of our daughter on the 16/10/08 and even though i almost died i was ready to go thru it 10x over.

-2009-

Was just spent being a mumma! (refer to other blogs if you want more details.. lol ) I taught myself alot in PSP and enjoyed doing so.. We started IVF again in September to try for another babe, but i was told i was in early menopause after having 2 failed cycles on the top amount of drugs, i was advised to take a break again, so i did... we decided we would not be going back to IVF again, we just couldnt afford it and we were not having any luck what so ever, so i went and seen a psychologist and we talked about everything we had been thru and i accepted that our family was complete and Marlie would have the world, well i decided to go back on Vitex. i figured it couldnt hurt anything.. a $17 bottle of herbs.. magical little herbs.. they kicked my system back into gear and new years eve i felt the familiar pains of ovulation and then...

-2010-
SURPISE!! I was pregnant! naturally! no fertility drugs!!! so 2010 again was spent like 2008, pregnant! It was a different pregnancy, i wasnt prepared for it and i had just come to terms with just having one babe, i didnt enjoy this pregnancy like i loved marlies, i was running after her and well i guess it was a typical 2nd pregnancy, the sparkle of the first had worn off, i just wanted him out so i could get on with it all, Little dude arrived on 8/9/10 another ceaser, this time by choice after running the risks assosiated with vbac and my bp issues.

so thats it ina nutshell, i  know ive missed something im sure but im getting tired... lol

bahahaha

Sorry everone but i just had to share this one... what a freaking crack up!

Challenge..

Ok so here it is... my biggest challenge! 

I want you gone!!!

After 2 babys... I am 76 kilos... loose 10 more and i may get rid of this atrocity 

ewwwwwww

Time to go fat slab!!

 it could be worse but its just this deflated slab of fat that just hangs there, I am realistic, I will never have a flat stomach but UGH I dont want to look like this!! The stretch marks I dont give a shit about, my babys gave them to me.. and i guess they gave me this tummy too but yeh I dont want it!!

oopsy daisy!

well i officially suck at project 365... but i have a very good excuse... my laptop has been given a overhaul, full reformat and ive been working at getting everything back on here where it should be and downloading all the stuff i forgot to back up.. yeh clap clap idiot.. i just lost all my music and digital scrapping stuff and well i guess that has nothing to do with my picture taking abilitys huh.. hmmm ok so maybe i dont have a good excuse :P but ive been busy so leave me alone..
Miss M has a cold... Baby L is teething.. Daddy has bronchitis and well Mumma is just trying to hold it all together whilst comin down with a cold/flu/something myself! sigh! i reckon i need another couple of arms and a good nights sleep but neither is going to happen so i guess i should just get on with it huh.

testing

just a quick test post.

Day 3 & 4

January 3, 2011

My spunky boy Logan... check the drool oh yeh baby hahaha

January 4th 2011

Peekaboo Marlie!!!!

Project 365!

I forgot to mention this in my goals, I am partaking in this project now that i have an awesome camera... my goal is to do a scrap book out of them so will be doing alot of digital scrapping with a week to each page... this is gonna be a huge task for me and at the end  print each page off and have a full years worth of memorys and to continue doing this for the next few years, not only is it a great way of remembering to take the photos but no doubt it will be a record of how the kids change too!! So here is yesterdays photo

January 1st 2011

Marlie & Logan in the bath

 she is an excellent helper and loves to wash him and he laughs the whole time she does it

And now todays!

January 2nd 2011

Our brand new fishtank... fish yet to come once the water stabilizes 

Happy New Year!

Well it is the start of a new year! Welcome 2011 I cant wait to see what you have in store for us.
New years eve for us was spent at my youngest sister's house, the kids played for hours in the pool while us women folk sat around having a good ole chinwag and the boys congregated around the bbq with my step father being the know it all and bossing poor neil ( my sisters fiance) around and trying to take over HIS brand new bbq lol.. i really enjoyed yesterday afternoon, there was no stress the kids could run and have fun without the stress and worry that was experienced at my mums house on christmas day where the kids where being yelled at left right n center for touching this or that or well just being kids, i mentioned this fact to her yesterday and told her i wont be attending christmas anymore, its just too much and too hard with her in charge! So im thinking next year we will have christmas here and it will just be a casual bbq for who ever wants to come, i dont see the point in spending it with all the extended auntys and uncles, they are people i dont see all year and have no interest really in spending what is meant to be a special family day with them, its like having a table full of strangers at the table that u have to kiss and be nice too even though u cant stand them.. i know i know its one day rahdy rah rah but ugh no thanks!! wow went off the point of this blog there didnt i haha can ya tell i dont like christmas hence no christmas blog!

Melissa, Me, Caz & Mum ( 2 of my sisters)

After we took the kids home, I got them all settled into bed then I headed over to Loz's to see some of my bestest friends, I didnt stay long, I wanted to be home by midnight :) I got home at 11.30.. just in time for Logan to wake up and want a boob so it was well timed really lol

So what are my goals for this year..

• Loose the slab of flab i have hanging of the front of my tummy from having the kids, I will always have a little belly, im fine with that, never in my 27 years have i had a flat stomach and now with the ceaser scars and the hole pivot in my pubic line from the numerous surgerys it has made it impossible to even think i could one lol so its more a toning issue for me, I am 5'10 and weigh 73 kilos, i am within healthy weight range.. "Your BMI is 24 This is within the BMI range of 20 to 25 which experts generally consider to be healthy. " Sure I could probly loose another 5-10 kilos and that would be great, but as i said its more a toning issue for my tummy!
• Go on holiday's, We have not been on a holiday for years, The last time we and mike went on holiday was to QLD in 2005, we went for a week and we drove up there and stayed with his aunty. Obviously now that we have the 2 kids it will be a child friendly holiday so i will have to get planning and saving so it can be a nice one worth while going on, any ideas?
• Spend more time together going out as a family wether it be to the beach for a picnic or down the park for a play, everything in this house revolves around the computers & tv's and its shit, ive had enough there is more to life then this house... now to convince hubby of this! 
• We have a very slack dinner ethic in this house, you know how most people sit at the table and eat a meal together.. well we dont, mike sits at his computer desk, i sit on the couch and Marlie sits in her highchair in front of the TV... talk about bad habits!! So i would like to break them and have us all at the table, no tv on.. no computers just us 4. 
• Be a better wife, Mike works very hard to give us everything we want, sometimes i think i take that for granted a bit and I need to appreciate his efforts more.. i guess he makes it hard when he comes home and just wants to play games when ive had no one but children to talk to and i want some attention from him.. sigh 
• Be a better blogger!!

That is all i can think of for now... I'm sure I will see other peoples goals and think oh thats a good idea lol but for now they are my main ones :D soooo what are yours?

Marlie will turn omg 3 this year, she is already such the little grot lady and growing up so very fast, we are cutrrenty in the midst of toilet training, we have many naked days and she runs off and takes herself to the potty or big girls toilet when she feels the urge to go, we havent had a accident for 3 days now! Nappies still at night and when we leave the house, but naked or nickies when were home! So i think that is another goal to have her fully toilet trained this year.

Logan will turn 1, its gonna be a HUGE year for him with many milestones to reach and i cant wait for him to acheive each and every one of them, He's 16 weeks old now and not doing that much, but hes pretty awesome with a wiked cheeky grin that just melts your heart, we are giving him lots of floor time coz Marlie doesnt really go near him unless to give him a kiss and is very careful around him when she is near him, we are lucky we have 2 loungerooms and she tends to play in the one we arent in lol 

I shall leave you with some piccies of the kids from yesterday!

       

...Marlie in the pool..                                                                                           ...Logan chillin inside.....